Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction (MBSR) was brought into my attention at the beginning of this year, in fact during the late of February 2017, one month after the terrible death of my mother prior with several weeks till the celebration of her 72 years old. I was terrible depressed, and I had no relief at that moment with this heavy loss. Three years ago, after going to a psychotherapist because of depression and insomnia, I was advised to start Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) in order to improve my mood. But, instead of going to some CBT specialist, I preferred to explore myself this topic.
Having no idea about CBT, I navigated to Aaron Beck Institute’s website and I noticed the book recommendations for the patients. Exploring the titles listed there, I searched with Amazon.com the available of them in order to be sent in Romania. Therefore, I purchased several dozens of them, and as soon as they arrived, I planned the order of reading. One book was sealed in a transparent plastic shield and was regarding mindfulness CBT. Therefore, I decided this to be the last to be read.
On the next years I carefully studied a lot of CBT, trying to apply for my condition. Till the death of my mother, all of them were finished, only the plastic sealed one remained untouched. After this bad event, I realized that all the CBT therapies studied by me were not able to help me in coping with such a catastrophic event. Having no better idea, I remembered the sealed book, and I started to read it, entering on this manner into the practice of mindfulness CBT. This approach worked very fast producing good results in short time.
On the biography of that book, and also in the text, a lot of quotes and references were made about Mr. Jon Kabat-Zinn. Intrigued, I ordered two beautiful Amazon’s Kindle books written by him, named: “Wherever you go, there you are,” and “Full Catastrophe Living.” This reading definitely change my life for better. All the main theory of MBSR practice was exposed and explained on these two precious books. After finishing to read them, I searched for a place to systematically learn more.
Unfortunately, in Romania there is no such a place. Therefore, I extensively searched on the Internet to find an online course. Unfortunately, many of the courses required a lot of money, too much for a person living in my country. But in the month of July, I found a website “palousemindfulness.com” and I was amazed by the quality, availability and generosity of his founder. At once, I enrolled to study the MBSR course available at this location. A wonderful experience has emerged in very short time.
In each week I advanced in the practice and understanding of MBSR through various exercises, readings and videos. I appreciated the richness of information, carefully selected for each lesson. Simple awareness became by far my favourite approach for mindfulness. From this basic stance, all the other methods were learnt in a harmoniously manner. Also, the daily journaling of both formal and informal sessions has offered me a great tool of refining my experience in gaining a deeper meaning of the daily life.
Advancing in the new territories of the MBSR realm, I gradually discovered the depth of this practice, enriching my understanding about the complex web of interactions that is embedded on the canvas of universe. Therefore, this course was like an open gate to the new and hidden dimensions of reality. Now I realized that the “full catastrophe living” is only at the surface of our perception, something that can be dissolved by a greater perspective gained by the mindfulness practice.
MBSR was not only about reducing the stress of life, but also, it offered me the opportunity to develop myself in many other areas, including the life experience in a moment-by-moment manner. This was the highest benefit I received by attending this course, being the main reason why I am so grateful to the founder of the abovementioned website. From now on, I intend to go further in order to comprehend more the profound meanings of our existence, and to integrate apparent disparate pieces of sensations and memories into the continuum of my awareness, as the most precious treasure received on this earth.